craving.

i was craving a blog post. haha.
there's so many things i want to write about!!

okay first.
BEST BANDS. and artists, haha. feel free to add to my list. haha. =]

> the maine.
> kid sparrow.
> metro station.
> the jakes.
> ready aim fire.
> rocket summer.
> hellogoodbye.
> kimya dawson.
> dropout year.
> boys like girls.
> dashboard confessional.
> james blunt.
> brighten.
> blink 182.
> angels&airwaves.
> death cab for cutie.
> cute is what we aim for.
> postal service.
> sherwood.
> the scene aesthetic.
> the format.
> cartel.
> all time low.
> say anything.
> quietdrive.
> my favorite highway.
> the spill canvas.
> five times august.
> lfo.
> train.
> savage garden.
> matchbox twenty.
> american hi-fi.
> all american rejects.
> britney spears (haha)
> the ataris.
> lifehouse.
> yellowcard.
> gym class heroes.
> john legend.
> snow patrol.
> keri noble.
> ingrid michaelson.
> meg&dia.
> schuyler fisk.
> colbie caillat.
> the fray.


mkay. next topic?
friends.

senior year is supposed to be the best of my life. it's been good, not gonna lie. but i get the feeling that i don't have one group of friends. well i know that, haha. i never really have, i change groups and friends...and it's never bothered me. i mean, i have more friends because i don't limit myself to one group of people. but then as senior activities are happening...i feel almost left out. everyone is hanging out with "their" group- and i don't have one. it was really obvious at formal. like, everyone assumed i was going with a different group of people. and that's almost like a compliment...but then again, i was like...okay, now i don't have a group. i had to ask to be in a group, and then it was semi-awkward cuz i could tell i wasn't really wanted.
i know sadies is gonna be the same problem. what do i do? i want one group that i can clearly identify with. but i can't beg someone to take me in. am i the only one that this is happening too? agh. =/
i can just myself at senior sunrise and grad nite...like, looking around at the cliques and groups of people, and not feeling like i belong anywhere. it's like..i feel so wanted but lonely at the same time. i hope this works out...i guess i need to pick a group of people and stick with them. but then what happens to everyone else not inside that select group of people? i can't let them go, but this won't ever work unless i do to some extent. blahhhhh.