eye for an eye.

24 days until i leave. 24 statements.

1. you've made such a big impact on things here. i'm sad i didn't really notice that until you were gone. just know that there's so many people here who love you. you two will be fine, i know it. you are an amazing person inside and out and i'm really glad i got to know you.
2. it took all the strength in the world to not say what i wanted to tell you. i miss you so much. hopefully i'll let you know that.
3. i'm finally ready to listen to your advice- i am listening to your advice. but i think it's too late. i feel like you don't care that much.
4. i wish i could tell you. i know it's better not to. i miss you more than you could ever know. but you'll never ever know.
5. i honestly can't imagine my life without you, and if we drift apart once i leave, i don't know what i'm going to do. you're the best best bestest friend i could ever ask for. i fucking love everything about you.
6. i don't know what it is about you, but you've got me insanely interested.
7. i'm secretly glad you didn't pass.
8. i wish you knew how much you were hurting him, although i know a lot of it is his tendency to overanalyze. you could change your ways...it's not that hard.
9. ....you smell really bad but i don't think anyone's ever had the heart to tell you.
10. please don't break up.
11. your secret is the one secret i think i've literally never ever ever told anyone in my whole entire life. i'll never forget how much you telling me that meant to me. i don't think you'll know this is about you. while i'm at it, you inspire me so much..you have so much potential and your words carry such importance in my life.
12. if i wasn't leaving, i would totally date you! hahah.
13. it feels good that i don't miss you. i knew i didn't need you.
14. you're the best kisser i've ever kissed. who would have known.
15. i will always be here for you, and i hope 3000 miles won't end the amazing friendship we have. you're so much younger but i never even realize it when we hang out or talk.
16. you're so alike me it's kind of scary. i just hope you can look at my mistakes and learn from them, because i can see where youre headed, but i know you have to figure it out for yourself. but the answer is yes, choose him. give it a shot.
17. your work ethic makes me lose a LOT of respect for you. stop using it as an excuse.
18. everything you said to me about making this count was a bunch of crap. ha, wow. i should have seen it but i didn't. i'm not mad, just disappointed. you have a lot of wasted potential.
19. i kinda didn't believe you, but once i saw the proof...wow. i admire you so much- you're so strong and you're such a good person. i just wish you weren't a drama queen...but you'll be okay.
20. please please please tell me that was not a date!
21. we should totally become like best friends!
22. i like how you all hung out without me. if you really don't like me...can't you just tell me? hahah wow. people like you make me so glad i'm going to new york.
23. please don't turn into the whore you're totally capable of being. cmon, you could do so much better. we talked about this. you know it's wrong. you're young but not that young.
24. you're a total creep. hahahah but really.


this is the ultimate countdown,
3 weeks till i leave.
1 week until i'm LEGAL!